vishal

My passion of writing has been developed in last few years, but not writing it up too much. But I sneak it whenever I could in random notebooks, a small piece of paper, on various word document scattered in my laptop. But eventually, I haven’t written much of anything in this many years as I have let the work consume me, my comfort zone eat me and forgotten, what I could do actually. I don’t know who is going to read this write up, but yes I admit that my brain, my heart and I miss my thoughts to be delivered to the outside world.

These days, I am spending a lot of energy in finding myself at the age of 40. I am scrutinizing my lacking’s in self-discipline, lacking in work, lacking in relations, lacking in my commitments, lacking in my health, overall lacking in my life strategies.

I am sick of being scared of my own ghost. I know who I am, How I am, What I am right now. Also I would be not the same person tomorrow or next month or next year or in the coming years, as I am continuously changing and growing with maturity.

I felt my heart warm toward myself, toward my life, towards my health, towards my body and my busy and crazy wonderful life. I am not coming out of my comfort zone. I am active but not as I used to be. I want to nurture once again my life from the beginning but it is not possible. More than anything I want to be open to whatever I'm supposed to learn and whomever I'm supposed to meet in my life. I know my family and friends are helping me and will help me for lifetime to get the most out of experience, as I believe that an openness to creativity, thoughts. Opportunities and ideas can abound it and I'm ready for them.

There will be new beginning, There will be new and different sunrise, There will be new light, There will be new bonding of life, by life and with life. There is too much in this short life to be done, many dreams to be fulfilled, many wishes to be completed, a lot of inputs to be delivered in society, much social work has to be done. Lots of diversification, development in life has to be done.

I am who I am and how I am, right now. I won't be that person tomorrow or next month or next year, because I am always changing and growing. But every day I look myself in the mirror and will send myself love rather than disappointment and negativity. And from that positivity & love, change will come.

A life is moving ahead fast but nothing special is happening or I can say that, I am not inputting more efforts to make it exclusive and adventurous. As usual Life is going on with lot of feelings, but what is rather important that I am happy as my wife, my daughter, my friends and of course my parents are with me.

Ending this short write up, with the best wishes from my friends and family as an inspiration and develop more in writeup.